The Anchor Story: 1968 and Beyond

(Page Update 9/24/25)

A Lifespan Quest to Understand a Crazy World And Why This Story Matters

In 1968, I stood at a crossroads that defined the rest of my life. I was a promising young athlete, fresh from high school in Sunnyvale, California, with a reputation for speed, balance, and toughness. College football offers were on the table. The path of sports seemed ready for me to walk.

But the world outside the stadium looked different. I could not ignore the reality pressing in: a society obsessed with power, driven by emotional imaginings, and caught in cycles of shallow, idiotic reasoning. I asked a question then that has followed me for decades, shaping every choice, every success, every failure, and every discovery:

"What the hell is wrong with this crazy world of ours?"

This page tells the story of how that question became the anchor of my life. It is autobiographical, but it is also more: a resource for your own self-research and self-development. Through my life story, I aim to demonstrate how the Psychology of Lifespan Performance and Perceptual Control (LPPC) and the three aspects of existence — matter, motion, and consciousness — can be utilized as tools to understand why the world of humans seems crazy and unlock the esoteric door to proper human development.

Part I: Matter — The Athlete's Foundation

My formative years were built on sport. Between June 1956 and June 1967, I played seven sports: baseball, football, swimming and diving, track and field, gymnastics, basketball, and bowling. I was crowned with several individual and team championships, praised in the Santa Clara Valley Athletic League media guide as a "tremendous athlete… quick, tough, and aggressive."

What I learned about matter was first introduced to me through athletics. The matter aspect of existence grounds life in form and space. On the football field or bowling lane, I learned the importance of boundaries, precision, and discipline to create stability. Matter is not passive. It is Law embodied in form.

Yet as I looked around, I realized our world was collapsing under its own material successes. Institutions crumbled. Cities expanded without character. Nations competed for power but lost sight of purpose. I knew then that form alone would not save us. Something deeper was needed.

In June of 1968, I decided to leave the obvious path of college athletics to begin what turned out to be a lifelong journey to explore the other aspects of existence and search for a resolution to the madness I saw all around me.

Part II: Motion — The Serial Student

After that move, my life entered what I call the ten years of college with no degree period. And became a serial student, wandering through engineering, environmental design, business, cultural history, and photography. This process of exploring majors also meant moving to and from multiple college towns and university cities.

Politely welcoming me to the motion aspect of existence, that of rhythm and time. Motion is not just physical movement. It is experience, energy, will, the sequence of learning, and the tempo of life itself. My studies were not about diplomas. They were about orbiting the question I had set: why is the world so crazy?

The LPPC model explains this as the interplay of program and principle perceptions. Programs are the patterns we create to organize our lives. Principles are the deeper rules and laws we discover through practice and error. My serial studies were cycles of trial and passage: testing disciplines, discarding some, carrying forward fragments of insight.

Looking back, I see how these actions mirror the Solar System itself. Planets orbit their star. Systems evolve through cycles and phases. Each loop builds momentum for the next. It is all connected. Energy moves humanity in systemic cycles of progress and disturbance. The question is not whether we move, but whether our motion aligns with law, or spirals into chaos.

Part III: Consciousness — The Scholar Emerges

Consciousness, the third aspect of existence, is inseparable from matter and motion. The law of development tells us that all individuals (monads) evolve by developing their consciousness, and that forces act in different ways towards the final meaning and goal of life. In other words, the human capacity to bring meaning and order into the experience of one's life. Personally, consciousness entered my life through the process of self-research for self-development.

I was never content to be a passive student. I wanted to know how human beings actually develop. Amid decades of study, reflection, and lived experience, I assembled the systemic framework I now call the Psychology of Lifespan Performance and Perceptual Control (LPPC).

LPPC diagrams a hierarchy of development and behavior as the control of perceptions:

• From sensations to relationships.
• From categories to principles.
• From perspectives to systems.
• Finally, to the perception of the whole (the system concept).

The model is simple, but its implications are profound. Consciousness develops by stepping through moment-to-moment feedback loops of lifespan performance activations driven by purpose, error, reflection, and correction. As suggested above, my life itself became the experiment. Every job, every project, every setback was part of a larger cycle of existential development, illustrating how consciousness can evolve when viewed not as chance but as Law.

Part IV: Bowling — Coaching as Laboratory

During the late 1980s, bowling became my only remaining bridge between athletics and philosophy. I renewed my serious competitive stance, winning tournaments and recording a perfect 300 game in 1987, as well as an 834 series in 1999. For a brief time, I even considered joining the PBA Senior Tour.

But my innate inclination was coaching. A natural ability of mine that I developed in 1967 - 1968 as a tutor to my shot-put teammates. And continued by helping fellow students in cultural history and photography (1976-1981). From 1995 to 2023, I coached bowlers of all ages, eventually earning the USBC Silver-Level Coach designation. Coaching was my laboratory for testing the LPPC theory. Every bowler was a living case study:

• How do you perform under pressure?
• How do you control emotional imagination and align it with physical skill?
• How do you move from fragmented reactions to integrated performance?

Looking back, I find bowling, for me, was never just a sport. It was a microcosm of life. Even professional bowlers collapse under pressure when their control systems fail, so too does humanity collapse under the weight of power when its consciousness is underdeveloped. Coaching allowed me to see, in miniature, the very patterns that plague our world on a global scale.

Part V: Trials of Life — Loss and Recovery

No life is complete without trials and tribulations. I have revealed some of mine above. But, as they say, the hits just keep on coming. My experience included divorce in 2008 and the devastating death of my 31-year-old son from COVID on 2/25/22. Before that (March 17, 2018), I suffered a stroke that forced me to rebuild strength, abilities, and qualities from the ground up.

Losses and challenges were not detours from the research, but its proving ground, which forced me to reapply every innate lesson I had learned about matter, motion, and consciousness. Recovery became a form of research. Grief became a test of Law. Each trial provided an opportunity to compare the intended (reference) perception with the actual one perceived in the environment. If they conflict, you receive an error signal in the LPPC dynamic cyclical systemic framework, demanding adjustment, adaptation, or renewed purpose.

As you may have ascertained, this lifespan performance story is not a straight stimulus-response line where one performance ends with you leaving the stage before the next one begins. But rather a continuous, cyclical, hierarchical process of descending and ascending feedback loops where every impediment folds back into the system, demanding a recalibration of the reference signals first set in 1968. To continue my work on understanding the why, how, and what is wrong in and of this crazy world of ours. And to live sanely within it. You'll find the opportunity, as I discovered, is to follow the cyclical lifespan performance of self-research for livelihood development (as identified in the LPPC model above).

Part VI: The Solar System as Context

The Solar System itself provides the backdrop for this story. Hylozoics teaches that every solar system is a scaled-down replica of the cosmos, a living whole composed of seven worlds. The solar system we share is in its second stage of development, known as the Age of Consciousness.

That is why the question I asked in 1968 was not just a personal one; it was a question that resonated with the broader community. The Solar System is pressing humanity to awaken. Earth is the classroom. The lesson being taught is the development of consciousness.

The Sun steps down cosmic energies into forms usable for life. It seems that my role, my service to mankind, is to mimic the solar system and step down esoteric knowledge into forms useful for us Earthlings. The progression of my self-research for my livelihood development, specifically in the areas of Optima Bowling, LPPC, and now, this, the premiere of the 2026 iteration project, represents my attempts to translate the cosmos into human-scale language, tools, and stories.

Part VII: Your Story Within Mine

This story is not just mine. It is also yours.

Every human being must decide: will you ignore worlds, or will you work upon worlds? Will you live reactively in the craziness of power, imagination, and idiotic reasoning? Or will you intentionally align matter, motion, and consciousness into a life of purpose and integrity?

The LPPC model is one tool. My autobiography is another. Both are available as resources for you to conduct your own self-research for personal development.

• Matter: Ground yourself in form and discipline.
• Motion: Align your energies, rhythms, and sequences with Law.
• Consciousness: Integrate your perceptions into a coherent whole.

Existence encompasses the three aspects we've been studying; this is not a theory. It is survival. Humanity cannot remain trapped in craziness forever. The Solar System itself demands growth.

Epilogue: The Anchor Question

When I first asked, "What the hell is wrong with this crazy world of ours?" I could not have known the decades of searching, coaching, studying, writing, grieving, and the worlds ascertained would follow. Now, in hindsight, I can say: nothing is "wrong" that cannot be developed. It is only potentiality operating before actuality.

The Solar System evolves. So must we.

This page outlines the beginnings of my 2026 Iteration Identification Project. The system concepts and story here are my current offering. If it helps even one reader move from ignoring worlds to working upon worlds, then the journey has been worth it.

I'll End Here With An Invitation

I invite you to use this story as a mirror. Let it help you ask your own anchor question. Let it remind you that every setback is a feedback signal. Let it show you that existence, as three aspects: matter, motion, and consciousness, is not an abstraction, but an esoteric door waiting to be opened.

And let it encourage you to take the next step in your own development — for yourself, humanity, evolution, and the unity that lies ahead.

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